|If I weighed just a few pounds less, then everything would be ok again. I know I said that a few days ago, but this time it's different.|
I feel good only when I'm eating. It helps me cope or provides an escape. Eating is the only thing that makes me feel happy.
|I lie in bed, obsessing about food. Eventually the craving becomes so strong I can't stop myself from eating.|
|I hate when I overeat. I feel so guilty that I have to do something about it, so I purge. Of course I hate purging too, but it's the only way.|
|I have this hurt deep inside, like an open wound, throbbing with pain. I eat to smother that pain, to bury it. But it always comes back.|
|People tell me to just eat or that I'm beautiful just the way I am. They don't understand.|
|You know you have an eating disorder when you go out for a stroll and the scent of food triggers something, and you can't wait to go home to binge.|
|I feel like a success
when I don't eat. I feel in control. Eating feels out of control.
|Do you have a story or description about your battle with an eating disorder? If so, please share it with me. While I can't include everyone's responses, I'll try to rotate the stories on this page with new ones which describe typical eating disorder experiences. I want others to understand what eating disorders and the pain that drives them are really about , so please help me out!|
Comments, questions, or suggestions? Please, email me.
Jonathan P. Levine, CSW 2300 West Ridge Rd. Rochester, NY 14626 (585) 225-0330 firstname.lastname@example.org
Updated on 06/24/2002